Friday, January 9, 2009
It's over....
12:58 AM
" I've never felt lonely like this before...It's a different kind of loneliness...When there is a friend that is available, i push that away...instead..i keep on running after those who dont need me...maybe dont want me....so lonely.....Thank god for music...without music life would be a mistake.....the only thing that cheers me up is none other than entertainment....i love entertainment...i was born to entertain...my talent lies in there...so what am i doing here?? What to do? I miss entertaining...i really do....I must learn to be independent...i must...i have to...It is seriously over...i dont think i even want to do it....the only one time we had fun is.... over...only once in a lifetime...No more.....Dang! i feel like crying...what is happening to me?why over this???????????It is sad that my new year start like this.....I dont want to pretend..im sick of pretending,im sick of trying and im really tired......too tired...this time i am not letting go...im giving it up....I am giving it up...."PS: It's over
