Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Eight chapter
4:42 AM
" Dont come running to me when u lost all your hopes. I am not a back-up friend to you. Do not exploit my kindness, please. Yes it is true we had some special moments but that is all in the past. I am sorry. I have high expectations of friends. Friends may come and go. But honestly, to lose you, i wont regret it. All those pretense and even though u told me there are real moments where u really care for me and believe me i really did treasure it, but the pretense, the acts had overruled everything.......I dont understand why do you set priorities on somehting else and pushed me aside to pursue it. We really did have great bonding. For the reason i move away was because u were no longer close to me, u were close to someone else. I got hurt and confused. Moreover, i no longer hear ur sweet words. All i hear was negative compliments that make me feel sad.....and that is why i moved away....Things happen for a reason. It is extemely sad that it had become like this.....""I have decided not to come running to you if i have problems, because it is my own fault of pushing you aside for pursuing another matter in my life. For u have changed, u no longer listen like u used to, u no longer talk like u used to, we no longer talk like we used to. I am sorry for making u my back-up friend. i wont come running to u if i lose all my hope....u dont deserve it and i am not worth it.....i promise to be more independent from now on.....sorry babe.....""The problems in our life recently brought us together.It is great for us for we each found a new friend. But it is sad, that our old ones are lost.We get to share our thoughts, vent our frustation because we both understand how it feels like. I need u, and u need me. things without me is not good for u, i know, for u had called me to be there for u. I appreciate it. I feel as if i am important to u. But i hope that if u get it back, u wont forget me. hope u dont come running to me when u lose ur hope. I dont mind being there for u, but pls dont make me ur back-up friend coz i cant help feeling that our friendship was built because u needed someone to tide u over.Hope that each of us find peace in our own problems so that our friendship is not based on these problems alone.....""I am happy recently, coz i am starting to know u more. I get to see ur humourous side, i get to listen to ur crappy jokes, i get to be in your memories. For we had never had anthing in the past. so at this time, i feel happy. Many thanks to you. I always wanted to know how isit to be close to u coz i've heard about how funny and crazy u are to ur close frens, and now i've got to. So are we frens? i noe we are graduating, but we havent rite? eventhough for my part, i feel happy, but i hope u no longer hate me...if there was a time i make u angry please forgive me.......coz we ARE graduating......"